Keeping It Real

I'm getting tired of reading, "I saw something on someone's blog that made me feel like I'm not doing good enough." Or while talking with friends, women I admire and love, I find that they're beating themselves up for not meeting someone else's apparent level and I get frustrated. It's a girl thing, I think. I think, we all have good intentions but often project our expectations of ourselves so strongly others pick up on that. Honestly, I do it too both sides of it. To make it worse I expect perfection of myself, create lists so long no one could get them done and then I think mean things about myself because I wasn't successful. What can I say? I'm working on it :) I know it's messed up.

About a year ago I started on a journey to learn about myself and look at myself a new. I've learned to let go and now strive to live my life for me and my own family. Something I'd neglected and forgotten. I wrote in my journal, "I want to stop holding myself back from greater happiness." I can honestly say I've allowed myself more happiness! Interesting thing though, it doesn't come without pain. I rejoice in the journey, trust life's timing and God so much more these days.

In an attempt to keep it real for you and me here's the truth: somedays are awesome, some days... not so much. But my life is deliberate and I choose to live the good with the bad so I can learn and grow. No reason to feel bad about that. Below you'll see my collected evidence of my bad days, to keep myself in balance I'm going to list one thing I'm good at under each picture.

{I am good at overcoming my shyness in hopes of making new friends.}

{I am a hopefully and optimistic person.}

{I'm good at enjoying the small things in life.}

{I enjoy learning and testing out my new knowledge.}

{I am good at teaching young children.}

{I can make very tasty food.}

{Sometimes we eat dinner with the sewing machine. I am creative and try out lots of ways to get that creativity out.}

{I am good at cleaning up after a toddler and daily life.}

However, life happens. I'm not going to stop it and it's not always neat. I am learning how to better keep up, but there are times I've got better things to experience in life than a clean house.

P.S. we don't live like this all the time, just sometimes ;)