Porter has Surgery Tomorrow

If you haven't heard Porter will be having an endoscopy and colonoscopy tomorrow.  The procedure itself is low risk.  Porter has done pretty well with anesthesia in the past but there have been some bumps he has faced that individuals with Down Syndrome often do.  We've been doing our best to keep him healthy and so far he has remained so.  They'll have to put him under a strong general anesthesia tomorrow and that's our biggest concern.  We hope he'll respond as well as he can.  It's not a big scary kind of surgery, but as parents we always worry.

This doesn't get any easier the more ya do it.  I just finished submitted all of Porter's paperwork online and I have all the prep work in place.  We'll wait for the call confirming our surgery schedule later today but he most likely wont go in until afternoon.  We'll have to make him fast all evening tonight and all of tomorrow.  That's the longest this poor boy has ever had to be kept from eating and it goes without saying we are nervous about making him so uncomfortable.  I'm am so worried.  I was wide wake last night thinking about my little guy.  The older he gets the more I worry about traumatizing him by willing passing him off to strangers and watching them walk away from us.  Making things harder, I tested positive for influenza B (your good ol' regular flu virus) on Friday and have had to stay locked up in my room for the past 3 days to try and keep Porter from getting sick.  Unless I get A LOT better by tomorrow I wont be going into the hospital.  I just can't live with the idea of getting an already sick child sicker, but just the thought of not being with Porter tomorrow makes me cry.  Being away from him the past few days has just made my anxiety worse.  We've been working towards this for over 6 months so I am trying to keep the big picture in my mind of why I started this whole process and I am trying to put my doubts aside for the hope that we can help this little cutie feel better.  I pray that he'll be safe, he'll be strong, he'll be comfortable and that he'll know we're always there for him.

All prayers and positive thoughts are greatly appreciated!

p.s. y'all rocked those socks!  I'm excited to collect the masses of photos we received of your socks.  We know this little guy is so loved!  Thank you from the bottom of my heart!