I had a hard working, busy day at home yesterday with 2 kids fighting the sniffles. I didn't feel like that though. I felt like I was dropping the ball in every area of my life and it ended in tears for me. This morning I'm starting with some strong reminders of where I can find the peace and strength I need to do my best, forgive my shortcomings and have faith that Christ will make up the difference. I have faith in my Savior Jesus Christ but where Satan gets me the easiest is in my opinion of myself.
And when I compare myself to others believing that their children never fight, their homes are spotless, they know everything about educational therapy for their child with down syndrome and do therapy like ALL the time, and they know exactly how much money is in every budget every single day, their laundry doesn't pill up, their legs are shaved and they got a shower this morning. I start to wonder what's wrong with me. I have to say to myself, "Even if others can do all of those things...What does that have to do with you? Nothing!" My path, my life, my children, my responsibilities are uniquely mine. The best piece of advice I could give myself is "Try to look at yourself through the loving eyes of your Heavenly Father." Still a little discouraged this morning I said my prayers and had an overwhelming feeling that my family members, particularly my Grandma Lynda, were praying for me because they have faith in me. Thanks for the prayers guys! Let me wrap it up with another song, because music is such a strength to me.
2 comments:
Thanks for posting this. I am getting a little taste of what my life is going to be like for the next many many years as a mother. It's easy to get down on yourself for not keeping things clean & not getting things done that you have planned on accomplishing. I just keep telling myself that what I am accomplishing by taking care of Whitley is far more important than the laundry or the dishes. Keep your head up, you are loved!
Thanks for your post and the beautiful songs! Two of my favorites. Okay, so I thought you did ALL those things you listed, so now that I know you aren't perfect I'll be a little easier on myself :) You are amazing, don't ever forget it!
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