Most of our family reads this so it's a good way to get the word out and let you all know that there's some stuff going on with P right now. I don't want anyone mad at me for not letting them know, but we haven't really talked about it much besides with our parents. Porter possibly (pretty likely) had a seizure on Sunday. The doctor thinks there is a chance he just got scared really badly and reacted physically to his surroundings. We're going to have a EEG brainwave study done tomorrow morning. The doctor told me today that it will be conclusive and show if Porter's having smaller seizures that don't manifest themselves physically.
On top of my worry about the seizure, Porter has a terrible cold that kept him up last night. He was coughing, vomiting, and so uncomfortable. I keep watching him wondering if something in the environment might trigger him. I feel like I did 6 months ago waiting to hear back about the likely diagnosis of Down Syndrome. I'm trying to be optimistic but there's a reality there as well. I know that I need to be prepared for bad results while hoping for the best. There is part of me that keeps compromising, "I can deal with this if it doesn't cause Porter to suffer. I can handle it if it doesn't cause him too much pain." Then I get angry at myself for trying to shake the will of the Lord. How can I not submit to his will for my little Porter? God's purpose is in all things. He gave his son for me so I need to humbly except whatever might be in store for my son. I've been thinking a lot about Mary this week. I've always had a soft spot in my heart for her, but being a Mom is making me realize just how much pain she had to submit to as well.
I hope that you'll hope for the best along with us tomorrow. We'd appreciate your prayers. We'll report as soon as we know. Lots of Love ~Megs
4 comments:
Oh no. Praying for Porter (and you). Piper had a seizure when she was almost two. It was so scary. But she hasn't had one since. So keep thinking positively!
You have our prayers. My husband was epileptic up until he was 20 and on his mission. Somehow he grew out of it. Miracle, really. I wonder if any of my kids will have it someday. Loads of love and keep up your positive attitude! You are a fabulous Mommy!
I hope everything is okay! You guys are definitely in our prayers & I'm so sorry you have to go through all this worry & stress! We love you
Your faith is such a strength to me. You and Porter are both in my prayers tonight. Loves!
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